Close... so close.

2-3 weeks left. I don't think I'm gonna make it. Baby's going to come early, i feel it.

I've been struggling with the pregnancy thing the past couple of weeks. I see people I know all the time, and they all ask the same thing "Are you getting excited?" I always gave the same answer "Yeah, getting there" but the truth is, up until Sunday, no, not really. None of this has felt real. It still feels like it's happening to someone else.

I read something on a website that a doctor had written. It said that at about 32 weeks, you should start to sense when your baby was awake, start to feel it kicking more often. I wasn't getting any of it. The only way I knew it was awake was when it moved, and it almost never kicks. Bloody thing doesn't stop moving around, though.

But on Sunday I had the second of two antenatal classes. The first week was all about labour. This week was more about afterwards. I finally started to feel better about all of it. Felt like this actually was happening, and that everything was going to be okay. We got to watch a baby being bathed.

I don't know why it affected me so much, but it did. The baby was 2 days old, and was so small. The midwife running the class showed us step by step how to bathe a baby, but I don't think anyone was paying attention. We were all watching the tiny thing in her arms. It cried the whle, way through, except when she picked it up and rocked it. It was a great thing to watch and now I can finally say, yes, I'm getting excited.

Almost here.

6 weeks to go with still no problems. I think Catherine's going to kill me. She keeps cursing my ability to wear normal clothes and my lack of morning sickness.

The time has gone so fast. Only yesterday i was 6 months along, today I'm 7 1/2. It's kinda scary. Now's the time that the pregnancy seems more real. My tummy's huge, and the baby moves around a lot. Just speaking the words "I have 6 weeks to go" makes it hit home even more. I'm going to have a baby. It helps, of course, that mum and I went shopping and went nuts on baby clothes.

Hopefully all will continue to go well. An amazing amount of things can go wrong from here on out, I've been told. With the all clear from the doc so far, things should work out fine. Now i just need to find somewhere to live (my lease ran out before I got a new place) and set up the nursery. Can't wait to do that. It's gonna be exciting.