Amber needs a holiday...

You know how there are times when you just want to stop, think about what is you are doing, at that exact moment and over all in life, and wanted to scream so loud, people who have been dead since the dawn of time will hear you?

I haven't gotten that bad yet. But it's building.

I don't know what it is, but i feel as though i have too many thing expected of me, and i haven't had time to simply be me in a long time. The only escape i get these days is time on MSN, and when i talk to people on WoW. hehe.. I'm a nerd. (Paul :P)

I needs a holiday. A reprieve. Just some time away from commitments, from expectations, and from my own mind.

It won't happen. You know as well i do. Work's too demanding. And i'll feel really guilty for ditching my Thursday night commitments. The girls count on me being there.

I guess, then, that i need a holiday for my mind, since my body won't be going anywhere.. hehe.

Something i've noticed lately is that my boss is extra stressed out. Usually i'll get chewed out pretty often, since she takes her bad moods out on me, but lately, almost nothing. I think she might be treading softly, hoping i won't walk out on her. The thought has crossed my mind quite a bit, but i won't do it. As much as she drives me crazy, it's not her i'd be walking out on, really. It the establishment, and the rest of the staff. Plus, Frank would kill me!

So for the meantime, i will persist. Broome's coming closer, probably should start to think about working things out for that now, but it's still a fair way away. I'm hoping i'll get to leave when i want to. Best laid plans.. hehe. Been saying that a lot lately.

For those of you wondering, Harry Potter 7 was awesome, as expected. Kitty and i went to Melb the day we got it, so we picked up the book from Big W, then hopped on a train. We read the book there and back. Our train was 45 mins late on the way home, so we read more than we thought we would. It was great. Took me til 5am Sat/sun morning to read the lot. It was worth it.

The 5th movie was great. It was the first Harry movie i sat through without exclaiming"I can't believe they left that out!" I was very impressed. Granted there was quite a bit left out, but it was not noticed as much as the last movies, which left out crucial information. I was very impressed with the scenes at the Ministry, when the DA are running from Death Eaters. Really well done. Ginny's performance capped it off nicely.

That's it for now. I'm bored. lol