Yay for Christmas!

I love Christmas. I really do. It's the one time of the year that i feel like everything's right with the world. For the past few years Christmas hasn't been the same. I lost someone who meant the world to me when I was younger and Christmas lost all meaning for me. Lost all its sparkle and magic. Last year was the first Christmas in a long time that i really felt like it was Christmas.

I'm not sure why. It could be because i had Greg, but i doubt that was the only reason. I think it stemmed from being in my own place. Creating my own Christmas, without forgetting the past. I wasn't sitting through a facade my parents made for me. I decorated my own house (Greg did it :P) I had my own tree that i paid for and decorated. It was my Christmas and it was special.

This year, the spirit has taken me again. Although i live in a block of flats, so cannot decorate the exterior, i have decorated the interior of my place and i like it. I felt happy about writing cards this year, LIKED christmas shopping this year. When you grow older, Christmas changes dramatically, but this year, it feels a lot like Christmases of old, because it's mine.

I think that there are a couple of other reasons i may be so looking forward to Christmas (Chris ;) ) But for now, the spirit is back and I love it. Last year was just a stepping stone for this year. A lot of last year and the start of this year was, i guess. A stepping stone for other things.

Anyhoo, Merry Christmas everyone. Have a great new year, enjoy the time with your family and friends, they won't always be there, and you should cherish the time you have.

Also, I wanna say Congratulations to Bethany, who finally gave birth a few days ago. I hope all is well and hope you have an excellent Christmas. Patrick, too.